"When I was young there were beatniks. Hippies. Punks. Gangsters. Now you’re a hacktivist. Which I would probably be if I was 20. Shuttin’ down MasterCard. But there’s no look to that lifestyle! Besides just wearing a bad outfit with bad posture. Has WikiLeaks caused a look? No! I’m mad about that. If your kid comes out of the bedroom and says he just shut down the government, it seems to me he should at least have an outfit for that."
- John Waters on the sorry style of today’s rebels (emphasis mine)
Sometimes I really wish I had grown up in a different environment, one more conducive to expression, openness, and creativity. Because then I think that I wouldn’t be so unhappy right now. It would have been easy to apply for and attend a school or program that encouraged artistry and self-expression and allowed me to pursue things I’m actually passionate about, creative things, even if it wasn’t one of the top schools in the country, because I wouldn’t have this sick complex inside of me where I need to constantly prove myself, to live up to some arbitrary standards I set for myself (or someone else set for me?) when I was six or seven or eight years old.
Maybe then I wouldn’t feel like this was just another few years I’m living anticipating some “future” where I’ll actually be able to enjoy the present, like high school all over again.
Maybe then I would actually feel happy.
If you’re a Philip Seymour Hoffman fan, this video is most likely the best 22 minutes you could spend today.